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97.1/365 - k.
Saturday, April 9, 2011
I have been feeling so insecure lately. I feel like I need to change myself so much. I feel and want to fit in. I hate our society. I say I hate it, but I’m the one that’s letting it get to me. I’m the one that is letting all these words affect me. I want to look better, I want a better body, I want a nice voice, etc. I want all these things I don’t need. I want them because everyone around me has it. I’ve also thought about just not having a social life at all. Or just make friends online like I’ve been doing. Or make new friends. I’m sick of all the people around me right now. They bring me down without doing anything, and it sucks. It really does. I just want to go home everyday, do my homework like a good girl, not go anywhere. No malls, no movies, no shopping, no amusement parks, none of that shit. I want to no life a game on weekends, I want to pig out. Those kind of things have been circling my mind lately, and it’s just dragging me into this black hole that’ll take me a long time to grow out of. When I think about this stuff, it makes me want to show them that I can change. I can be better, I can do whatever I want. Like this summer. I want to change my body. So, so much. I want to surprise everyone, I want them to be like “Whoa, she looks a lot better.” I’m striving for this. I want it so bad, and it’s killing me on the inside. I’ll change this summer. I’ll work so hard the first month, and chillax the second since I’m going to Vietnam. See, I have all this motivation built up in me, but I don’t know how to use it. I will learn though, just wait and see. |