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89.1/365 - l.
Friday, April 1, 2011
I'm sitting here wondering where you've been all my life. In a sense, you were always there, but I've never thought about it until now, until we started talking. I admire you a lot because you're so unlike anyone I've ever met. You're eccentric - in a good way - your sense of humour is childish, but amusing nonetheless. You're kind, you have morals and manners - sorry RCK, we have hardly any - and you're an all-round good person. You're like a breath of fresh air. I like staying up with you and acting stupid at night. I don't do flattery, but that's honestly how I feel. I never thought we could be friends, not the way we are now. I thought there was always some sort of stigma - because I am RCK - on me that made you want to be friends with me. I didn't think we'd make it past forced friendliness. I'm glad we did, though, because now, I consider you to be one of my closest friends. I know, I know - we've hardly known each other for long! But I still feel that way. Am I naive for thinking that? I hope not. I hope you consider me a friend as much as I consider you to be one. I find it crazy that you actually talk to me, considering our age gap. Yeah, I talk to people online a lot older than me, but not late night Skype chats like I do with you. I'm practically a kid, but you don't treat me like I'm two. I like that. I don't feel like I have to act a certain way around you like I do when interacting with people older than me because you're just so easy to get along with. It'd still be nice if you were around my age, though. Then we could do stupid kid stuff together without my feeling stupid. I don't know if it seems like it or not, but I feel comfortable talking to you on Skype. I've only reached that state with two other people - Kim and Tristan. Tris and I don't even talk anymore because well, something got in our way, so he doesn't really count. Kim is just impossible to not feel comfortable around with, and then there's you. I don't feel serene, in a sense, talking to Kuku, Alex, or Jay like I do with you and Kim. Andy and I are both shy, so we end up saying nothing. Jay is nice and all and it's not so awkward around him, but it doesn't seem relaxed, either. Half the time, I don't know what Kuku or Alex are saying, so I fear they are getting annoyed by the fact that I'm always asking them to repeat what they said. I always feel like I have to say something witty when talking to the rest of RCK on Skype, but around you two, I just laugh my brains out because I have so much fun talking to you. I'm upset about Spring Break coming to an end not because of school. School, I can deal with. It's just that we won't be able to talk as much as we used to. Simply, it makes me upset because we essentially just met and already we have to be separated. I'll still be on around 8 or 9, or maybe not at all, but it won't be the same. Hopefully I can pop on MSN during Business class to say hi. Even the days when I am on, I won't be able to stay up late. We won't have as many late night Skype chats - not that we had many in the first place, but still - and I'm pretty much dead tired by the time the weekend rolls around that I'll probably end up falling asleep on you. I don't want you to deal with the kind of person I am when I have school, either. I am uptight and high-strung, and I don't want your opinion of me to be lowered because I was having a bad day. Either way, I hope that during this time, our friendship won't fade away. Also Kim we should Skype later. I miss talking to you late into the night for hours. We haven't skyped all Spring Break and I miss hearing your voice OMNONMONMN. |